You always thought you were like the others, well at least you tried to be like them. Until the moment that you meet that person, that shows you the real you. But then.. you get broken again.

I haven't been writing for a really long time. And I don't know what happened to me.
In the last month there was a lot of questioning in my life, my decisions, my sexuality, ME.
I hid myself for so long that I started to forget who I was.
I thought that I was strong again and that nothing could have broke me again. But SHE did. Once more.
It's hard having a life but hiding a part of you, but I've been doing that since I was 12, since I realized I was into girls.
I would just fake to be someone completely different from me.
Then I arrived here and i met her. She made me remember who I was. I could be myself even though she wouldn't know the truth.
I was her bestfriend but she was way much to me, until the moment, the moment when after fights she broke my trust.
My trust as a friend, but my trust in love.
She never knew and she still doesn't.
I got to fake everyday that I'm alright and I don't care.
But what if I'm tired of faking..?
I'm stuck at this point where I wish I could stop my thoughts and feelings.
The thought that I can't trust anyone or anything is breaking me.
I have the flashbacks of when we used to say that it would last for ever.
I am scarred and scared to let her know.
It's hard to see the person you once loved, walking around like a stranger.
I think it's time to let her go, I'm not strong enough though.

Door: anoniem

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Difficult for you to hid a part of yourself. Can you tell other people about your feelings. Did you tell your parents. Most of the time they know, but they don't tell that. What fights do you have? Is there no other person who can mediate. May bhe she can just be a friend? The loss of a friendship hurts. But sometimes a friendship is also based on love. So you loose both. I understand your feelings.

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